This post is not a cry for help. I'm not sad and pathetic even though it may sound like that. I actually have complete peace and I am very excited to see what the future holds. These are just thoughts goin through my mind and feelings in my heart.
Over the summer our family made a huge change in our lives. We moved to a new church and decided to put our kids in a new school. I will post more about that later.
It feels as though we are starting all over again. In many ways it's been easy but in other ways it's been hard. One of them being the struggle to meet new people. I feel as though I am on the outside looking in.
It seems they all already have their friendships established. Like they've known each other for years. They seem genuinely interested in talking to me and meeting me, but is that where it stops? Their lives are full of family, church, school and the like. They are busy, like me. Could they have any more room in their lives for another friend? Is there any room in their hearts for me?
This has been weighing on my mind a lot lately. I guess it's natural for a
I know in time I will find my place. And I know it will take time. I just want a bucket full of friends. Not a lot just a bucket-full. ; ]
|My version of a bucket full of friends!! :)|
But more than that I would like one to be mine. Just mine. Okay, I'm scaring myself a little bit, but I think you know what I mean. That one that knows the real me. The one I can cry with, laugh (really laugh, you know, the pee your pants kind) with, go on play dates with and even "couple dates."
Sure, I still have friends from my old church, but things are different now. I don't see them anymore. I'm not looking to replace them, just add to my bucket. So, if I'm willing to add new friends to my life does that mean that others are too? If I still have room in my heart for another friend or two, does that mean they have a little room in their heart for me too?